I can see that the closest thing to perfect is the farthest thing from me.

alright, so this post was started on my birthday (may 19), and i never wrote anything in it? so, seeing as i'm majorly lame for not even blogging in my birthday month, i definitely should have at least one post in june. and since it's the last day of june '09--aka, like, the worst month ever?--it only seems right to blog now.

april was a good month i have to say. the chorus and band trip to williamsburg, VA was pretty freaking fantastic hahah. we did so much aside from the competition and going to busch gardens. we went to a lot of museums and stuff to make the trip educational, but it was fun too. the group was only like 60 people. we had one bus, and the "party van". and for all the kids there were only like 4 chaperones. it was amazing, cause they actually trusted us. on the way down, we stopped for lunch at a rest stop in new jersey. that was... interesting. i was sitting outside of starbucks at a table with ally, emily, and tony. we were just sitting there, with starbucks and cinnabons. then a hippie came over to me and was like, "hey, can i have a cinnabon? i don't have money for food." i was like, "uuh, sure..?" so i gave him one thinking he'd leave. i was wrong on that point. he stayed there for like 10 minutes. talking to us. about random things that didn't really make much sense. he asked us where we were from, i said western massachusetts. he said he goes up to amherst from time to time. then he asked us to go to a grateful dead concert with him. we were like, uhh.. no thanks. we have a competition in virginia to get to. he was like really? what kind of competition? and we were like, chorus and band. we're in chorus. he was like woah, really? sing for me. we were like, no. and then he started singing "my girl". like for 2 minutes, and he's like singing extremely loudly, and everyone's looking at us, and we were like, oh my Godddddd this guy is high off his asss. it made my trip. hahahaha.

on the trip though, we could go do whatever basically when we got somewhere, as long as we checked in every, like, 5 hours or something. and we didnt even have to see them, we could just call them. if it was a class trip or something, it wouldn't have been as fun because the teachers would've hovered and we wouldn't have been trusted because the troublemakers would have been there. and as band and chorus, they were pretty confident we weren't going to do something completely stupid. well.. they probably don't really know us hahaha. but we're still better. but it was kind of amazing how the group got along. normally, a lot of us never really associate with each other, but on the trip everyone was like a family. at the hotel at night everyone bonded because we couldn't hang out in our hotel rooms ahah. and the first night, everyone went in the pool and they had a hottub that had a maximum limit of 5 people--we had like 18 people in there. and of course there was shopping (: i ♥ norfolk.

colonial williamsburg was also kinda cool. i had already been there like 4 times before, and saw everything so it wasn't really the most interesting thing. mini golfing at pirates cove.. um. let's recap that with the words: EPIC FAIL. mainly on my part. let's just say i should never golf. i hit the golf ball into the waterfall, then while i was trying to get that out, i dropped my golf club in the water, then i was hanging on to the side by just my feet and legs, and just about fell into the water, when i finally got my golf ball and club out. then, if you thought i couldn't get any worse, i hit the ball and it clipped tge side, went flying and nearly took some guy's head off, and then went flying into the bushes in the parking lot. but overall, that trip was great (:

oh, and mixed chorus won 1st place. chamber choir won 3rd place. band won 1st place.
also, in april, taylor, lucy, and i went to northern lights and saw cash cash, the friday night boys, and forever the sickest kids (:

may was a pretty easy-going month. nothing big really happened; nothing bad, nothing good. it was just neutral. my birthday and birthday party were fun (: six reunion much? everyone's getting along, it was great. at the end of may, there was one more chorus activity. the berkshire chorus festival at the colonial theater. we were performing with mount greylock, monument mountain, and the berkshire choral group or something. we rehearsed friday night at saint stephen's church for 3 hours. then, on saturday for 6 hours. then on sunday we were at the colonial for like 6 hours. we performed handel's zadok the priest, schubert's mass in g (oh how i love latin...), and an assortment of american folk songs. it was actually waaaay more fun than i thought it was going to be.

june. june, june, june. not my favorite month so far this year.
it was pretty depressing. kinda bittersweet.
so i started june off pretty optimistic. it was the last month of my freshman year at wahconah. there were 25 days until summer.
not far into month, was the one year anniversary of my grandma's passing. then, the day after that, i learned that one of my friends was in a coma. the day after that, he passed on. he was 17 years young. too young to go. that was the first blow to the happiness of the month. then, the month started going by really really slowly. i started freaking out about grades. about the upcoming finals. about basically everything. then there were like 2 days without rain. it started getting pretty depressing.
on one of those sunny days, the freshman class went to highmeadow park in connecticut because it was senior assembly and they didn't have room for us. so, at this park, it was like middle school day. they had a very overcrowded pool, tons of food, other activities, and volleyball. wahconah took over the volleyball court. that's where i spent my entire day. there was absolutely no shade. i put sunblock on more than once, and i didn't realize i was fried like the french fries i ate, until like 4:30. i was basically as red as the hippie in new jersey's eyes ahahaha. then i got sunpoisoning on my shoulders. and peeling was disgustinnnng. and it hurt like craaazy.

then the carnival came to town. that was fun. not as fun as years past, but still fun. it gets lamer and lamer every year though haha. i just like the food. and the zipper. you never know if you're gonna die on that thing or not. oh, and yes, i did take this amazing picture on my phone. the sky is pretty epic.

then it was stephanie and laura's birthday. and steph's party was pretty dang fun. especially the second day, when steph, bryanna, asia, and i went rafting down the housatonic river. and ended up going pretty far and we were all injured and cold. so we got out, climbed up the side of a mountain pushing the raft with us, and sat on the side of a bridge for like 40 minutes trying to flag someone down to use their cell phone so we could get a ride back up to hinsdale. then the cops came. and i like broke my toe, and cut it open. it was like, the most fun ever (no sarcasm).
and then over the course of the month, like 6 celebrities died. MJ died. that's sad stuff. even if he was a creep. buut finals came, they were easy, i passed. im now a sophomore. 3 more years in dalton. summer '09 is here. i'm going to make the most of it. i'm starting over this summer. i don't really want a repeat of this past year. not that it was bad or anything. it just wasn't the best or anything. so thursday, i'm getting a new hairstyle, new hair color, new outfits. i'm starting fresh. i'm going to reconnect with God and my faith. go to some revivals. reconnect with family. go to some parties. reconnect with friends. go to some concerts. have fun. i'll only live once.

†R.I.P ya'll <3.