hold on; theres a hole in my heart.

(schey, sam, marko, nate, don)

okay, so all im really wondering is why all my favorite bands of all time are all breaking up. and whats weirder, is the fact that they both have a nate in them. and both nates are original members. but seriously, it had to be epic bands in my llife such as The Receiving End Of Sirens and The Format. (as shown above) its seriously killing me.

the story of how i came across The Format is a funny one actually.
it all started...
one day in music tech class, amanda was ill and therefore not in school. amanda was my partner in our sony acid project. so i was at our computer, and mr. garcia was like go to these websites and listen to some cheap music. and so most kids didnt, they played around on itunes, but i was like, hey! amandas not here so i dont have my mandarin podcast buddy, so why dont i check out this most likely cheezy site with bad indie bands. so i did. and i was about to give up and give into that "bad indie band" theory, but then, like last on the last page was a band called The Format. the picture they had of them wasnt that bad (like they werent terribly ugly, or anything) and their EP cover was snails. and i was like hey! this looks kinda cool. so i start listening to the song they had on there called "snails"... and long story short ive been hooked ever since.
the end.

and tonight i go check their myspace for tour dates, and find out theyre yet another band dispersing. they will never ever ever ever be forgotten. their music was truly unlike any other. they had such a unique sound. it could put me to sleep when i was tired but restless, and it could keep me up when i didnt want to sleep. haha either way, it always made you smile when you listened to their music.

aand they had like (in my opinion) theeee #1 band website. you could fly around the sky as a doggie, going to different platforms and doing different things. and the doggie could even peeeee on the fire hydrant. now i dont know about you but i think thats a pretty nifty site (: hahah and i even wrote nate a letter in "ask nate" ..but he never wrote back ): that made me sad haha. but no matter what happens to these guys, they will always go down in my history books as the best indie band EVER.

i love those guys.
RIP. <3

piddely winks!

i watched psych last night (: yay me! hahah it was the episode with the guy who has 3 personalities. haha it makes me laugh. :D

OMG yes! USA network dot com has a new episode up! woohooo :D and youll never guesss what commercial they have for it now! ... meatloaf, meatball, and meatslice. (only the 6 would get that, especially amanda who has an aneurysm everytime she sees it) hahah.

welll im gonna go to my like, fourth tab here on mozilla firefox, and watch Episode 216: Shawn (and Gus) Of the Dead. (:


later gator!

oh!

and i just wanted to express how much i love thetableofsix.
SOO much drama going on lately, and i just thought that that should be brought out there.

The Receiving End Of Sirens - Smoke and Mirrors

this is my favorite song of ALL TIME.
it rings so true of the truth.
i LOVE, (and i am obsessed..), and im addicted to;
The Receiving End Of Sirens. ♥
(or under their pseudonym, The Red Eye of Soromon)
they also originate from the same town as John Adams, Braintree, MA. (:

this is our revolution.

(Nate, Andrew, Brendan (Jesus), Alex, Brian)
(together they make the best band ever conceived)

i love this song.

the lyrics may be a tad graphic or whatever, but hey, like mrs. hagan says, in the end they will just be words.

i love how this song shows how corrupt the world is and how corrupt love is at times as well.
it just expresses a sad fact that is true of the current world.
our beloved mother earth has been belittled to pitiless propaganda, frivolous fighting, tainted tyrants, and hopeless heartbreaking. its gut-wrenching if you think about it. in saying that, not all of the world is in limbo. there are a bunch of really good people out there, and with them, the world is NOT a lost cause. with all of its issues, we can all lead happy lives. and i hope that you all do. (:

Stay Small.
by: the receiving end of sirens

Son, I'm sorry for this world,
And all the awful things she'll do to you.
If you only knew what you'd endure before you were born,
I haven't got a single doubt,
You would have not come out,
And I would have known it was for the better.

You'll be raped of any evidence, Of ever owning any innocence. This culture's a vulture, And your prime candidate for prey.
I've learned that I will lose all that I've ever loved one day,
But I never thought I'd ever have to watch it all go,
Or wish it all away.

I know you''ll grow,
But I wish I knew you'd stay small if I said so.
Please just don't grow.
Please just don't grow.
Stay small.
Won't you stay small?

Daddy's little girl met the world,
I watched the devil do his work.
If only she knew just how sorry I was for her.
I found not a single prayer,
Could save my daughter from despair,
As long as she stayed in love with this place.

It's because I truly love her,
That I wish to take back the sperm,
That brought her here in the first place.
Little did I know when the egg met the semen,
That my new baby girl,
Like her dad would dance with demons.

We watch the devil do his work in us. I watch the devil do his work.

" We have tested the buoyancy of loyalty."

tropical popcicles!

i just found this pretty little lady! (: ain't she a peach!?

so you think you can dance just makes my life. especially anthony bryant! (: i love that man!
as shown in the camo suit (: hes like fantabulous, and yet the judges like hate him. i dont get that. like at all. he should have made it the last time he auditioned too, even though he ribbon danced.. but hey guys can ribbon dance too! hahah i used to have one of those ribbon dancing things that had a radio in it too. and i would ribbon dance in front of my old house in the street singing along to avril lavigne. hahah cause im just so cool! :D




hahah oh and, i totally love the gold inferno. that man has awesome powers. especially of dance haha (: JUMP STYLE!!



welll imma head out fow now (:

sixteen.

ugh. theres been this horrible, wrenching pain in my left side of my torso for like 3 weeks now.
and boy does it KILL.
it hurt so bad last night that i could hardly breathe last night. for like an hour. so i watched the smurfs. i like the smurfs. theyre almost as corny as me, but you know what really gets me about the smurfs? its that they say like all their verbs are "smurf". so we'd usually say: go get me that vitamin water. they would say: go smurf me that vitamin water. akalsfj it buggs me sometimes haha.






aah! we had to watch 1776 today. that was BR00T@L T0 TH3 M@X. F0W $H0W. Y3@H ! B3T Y☼ü L!K3 MY G@NG$T3R WR!T!NG. H@H.
i personally like, love richard henry lee.
his singing makes my life. (:
(hes the one with the big red circle around is face area).
heckyes!


hahh my moms on the phone with aunt colleen right now. i think shes coming here from Colorado in like 3 weeks. jovial. hahaah.
16 days of school left! (:
YAY!
then its party time!

sajflksjfkjsajl im bored. i think ill go and watch clean house, psych, the smurfs, scooby-doo, or somethinng. see you around.

!

oohh! and if anyone out there has any ideas on how i should wear my hair with the dress;;


i would LOVE to know. (:
thanks!

uterus juice (:

hahahaaaaahahahahah!

kung foo panda commercial:
kung foo panda: "its full of universe juice"

me: "uterus juice.....?"
vee: "noooooo, UNIVERSE juice"
laughterrrrrrr! hahahahahahahahahahahhhohohohohohohohehehehehehehehehe (:

yeaah yeaaah thats how veronica and i dooooooo.

so yeaaah basically indiana jones is the secret man lover from oprah's momma who is 3256892368629 removed from my momma and so i guess hes my lovaaa from a lot of mommas, with some ethnic mommas thrown into the mix as well. hahah buut yeaah i love indy! or... henry jones jr. hahah (: GO SEE INDY!

errrrr yeah i got my graduation dresss! (:
its pretty (:
isnt it cuuute?! (: its bcbg max azria. haha (:

aand yeaah well i need to go dry my hair and watch hell's kitchen. ill catch you laterr!

birthdaypeas.

its my birthday!
:D yayme
hahah well it was an alright birthday.
the weekend was better i must say, but hey.
haha brie and missa (my cousins) are here from nyc/india (brie) aaand california (missa) so the beginning of the week should be alright. except for the MCAS which are tomorrow and wednesday.
yuuuucky. ):
well im going to go play with my iTouch (hahaha that sounds so weird, like i touch. hahaha) welll byebyee friends! :D

uvula (:

hahah my tummy killllllllllls at the moment and i swear to god i wanna rip it ouuuut.
weelll hmmmm lets seeeeeee im bored, its sunday, tomorows my birthday.
yesterday was my birthday party (:
that was a BEE-ELL-AYY-ESS-TEE, blast.
im craving cinnamon buns right nowwww!

im tired
rawr.
yeahhh well hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm iidk what to write about now. cause see, i had this great idea for a blog but then....

i forgot.
):

gosh darn malfunctioning cerebrum.
hahhaa.

well imma go for now (:

happy almost birthday to me! :D

woohoo drink a yoohoo

i havent blogged in a while.
hahah soo imma checkinnn inn (:
uumm 6 days until my birthday.
DETAILIOS tomoroowowowowow (:

byebye

i missssssss TREOS )':

... A LOT ):
like, so much im crying right now.

it may sound pathetic, but if you listened to them and felt the affect of their music, then you would know.(Left to right: dolphin, goose, big daddy buffalo brown, otter, snake)

their music was like no other.
and im deeply dissapointed that i never got to see them live ):
but i wish branden and his newfound family the best of luck.
and hopefully one day TREOS will make a comeback.

And there's nothing you can do when water ruins the maps we drew.

im eating my first orange since the choking incidenttt. O: mygoodness!
SHIT i dropped my orange D:
i picked it up and ate it (:
eew it tastes like lip gloss now ):
like my water bottle last night ): YUCKY.

and now ill sing some TREOS:

The apparitions tango to the sound of their heels tapping,
A procession of prosthetics limbs and mannequins.
They're all perfect models of imperfection
With a marrow made of cellophane.
Strap on your ballroom best.
Breath in and don't exhale.
Oh, Juliet! Oh, Juliet! Deny your name your father.
Rearrange the cells that form my skin.
See them through kaleidoscope eyes
Because everybody feigns sometimes.
Blur your eyes,
Romeo.
Bend the line
Romeo
Do you like what you see!
Oh Romeo
Where art thou?
I've dressed up this canvas skin' painted something colorful just for you.
Self-inflicted surgery is now routine.
It erases all traces of faces we have all known; we have all owned.
Stretch me over this
Two by four skeleton

Push on, plod on, these legs like pistons pumping forward motion.
Convalescent men in uniform.
We have fallen to friendly fire, shrapnel freckles our spine.
Still our feet fall one by one.

We're all puppets
We're all marionettes.
And the only thing left to discuss
Is the details of this armistice.
We've come to this agreement
Oh, how I've been teething in light of your misleading.
You've caused this collapse between
The heart and the synapse.

One hoped they'd break the patent when they die me in stride.
(one hoped they'd die break the mold.)
Just a simple steel specimen, truly empty down inside.
With a copper core wound veins, a pumping cold hydraulic heart.
Bellows cycle air on rhythms, rhythms fixed within my code.
It's easier to bow than keep these knees locked tight,
Tight like the rivets in my skin.
My pulse reverberates through this malleable shell,
With scars from shaping.
My insides grind their gears.
Abrasive churning, I'm so conductive.
It's always been a task with such low impedance.
My tendons tend to rust with time while wires misplace their currents.
So I will flee the factory and pray you to dismantle me.
Someone will find my makers; I'm coming apart at seams.
I'll cauterize myself back together again.

From the manger to the morgue,
Strangers are born and reborn.
Giving birth to the wages of sin,and claiming it came from within
Within me there's a gaping hole.
It seems I'm last to know.
No one, or thing, can fill this empty space that I've been pacing in.
I fell in love with an empty place
But I want change, but I won't change
I can't feel a thing
The pins and needles sing
I can say it, but it won't mean a thing
Cause I know you'll fall for each and every pretty word I sing.
Spirits spin me round once more.
Said "If you sing the overture that lulls me back to sleep, I swear I'm yours to keep."
Consumed with consuming.
Soon I'll swallow people whole,
I'll have back what strangers stole
If I can't find my happiness I'll soon devour yours.
I'll sing your weary head to rest with my overture
Cause I fell in love with an empty place.
But I want yours, but I want yours
For it I fell
For it I fell so fast

The wolves wear the wool
Of the sheep the have fooled
And preach their code of conduct:
"You've gotta push that, push that product"
We'll live in fear, for coats they may sheer
The fleecing of a fleeting flock
You may have my wool, You may have my locks
But my voice you have not, My voice you have not
We're sitting ducks, with feathers plucked.

You hide your fangs so cleverly dear, You sing your songs so prettily

I'll never fall for the Hook line and sinker,
Your smoke and mirrors.
I wont ever take the bait.
I'll never fall for those Formats and figures,
Your greedy fingers Won't ever get their hands on me.

Hey boy, you best look out
"Ooh, we'll have you."
Pay mind to those greedy people climbers
They're licking their lips at you.
They'll crush and they'll claw Their way to the top
Your legs are just ladders to them.
Your head's just another step man
On you like a rash
On you like a rash

Even though you hide your fangs so cleverly dear,
You sing you songs so prettily dear
Your most gentle call, Your most soothing song won't lead this sheep astray.

All these suits with big black lives Can't put me on the company's dime
I won't be bought, No I won't be sold

All these greasy palms and greedy hands,
All my supply all your demand.
I'm not you whore And I won't be your Babylon.

This little light of mine,
I was told to let it shine,
But I stood idly by, and watched that poor flame die

I kept it from the bushel and brush, and away from the grasp of men
I left that lantern in the light, where my flame could blend right in

I will bear this cross I will wear these thorns

But I know all this dark won't swallow all the light I hide, but still host

Her I'll learn to hold.
She will grow and grow, she will shine so bright

"Don't let Satan blow it out."
The teachers always said
But soon enough he figured out
It wasn't worth his breath.

'Cuz this little light of mine is losing all its' bright,
Not to the dark I hold inside, but to the dark kept from its sight.
Below the smoke still burns a fire.
A small spark lives 'nearth all these ashes.
Promise me you'll blow until I glow red, bright fiery red

I've learned to smolder.
All smoke but no flame.
Ashes ashes we all fall down

(I long to glow like you embers, bright halogen embers)

I will bear this cross, I will wear these thorns

This little light of mine
I was told to let it shine
But I stood idly by...

woww this was a long post hahah.
well ill catch ya'll laterrr.

R.I.P TREOS<3

funfunnnnn :D

okiiiedokieee!
soo today was a half day and the six (minus amanda)(do the math; 6-1=5)(so the five of the six) walked home to taylorrrs! then we crammed into her mommys car and went to rita maries on route 7 in lanesborough! while there we ate, drank, took pictures, danced, laughed, had a smörgåsbord of french fries and onion rings, and had ice creaaaaaaaaaam! then we drove like 2 meters down the road to bakers mini golf! mannnmaann, funnfunn! hahah ben and matt were there. ben mustve lied to us at school because he said he was going BOWLING. how is BOWLING anywhere near close to MINI GOLF? i dont know the answer to that quandary. uuuum mini golf was fun. there were good vibes and bad vibes towards hornets! D: veronica killed my foooooot, i spilled neon mint chocolate chip ice cream on my crotch, we took cute, adorable pictures/videos, went to the outhouse (vee went in the mens roooooooom! ..then the ladies. but then again, she is the big weener. hahah) (: we also mini golfed there :D it was a great enjoyment! i love my friends. uum then we went on the BuMpYbUmPyBuUuUuUmMmMmMmMpPpPyY road to the mall and had fun in macys, where we also got stalked by some creepy man O: after that we decided to be like the sisterhood of the traveling pants, and get a t-shirt that would all fit us, and we got a white one with like 3 hearts on it at steve && barrys and we're gonna write on it (: aand we also got a lovely babydoll tanktop at aeropostale that all fits us PERFECTLY. we will pass it on by our numbers (vee-1, ashley-2, taylor-3, stephanie-4, me-5; amanda-6) i think this will be lovely. uuh in the middle of the mall we did one of those star thingys with our fingers. (ill put the picture up laaataah), then we got drinks at pretzel time (: aand then we went to lady footlocker and looked at the cool shooooes! then we went back to taylors houuuuuuuse and CHILLED. werrrrrrrrd. OHOH! and we also took pictures with garfield in a car (kiddy ride) and we WERE gonna ride it too, but it was out of commission ): sadsad )': err errrr, our videos and pictures are LEGENDARY. dont be hatinnnnn'. PEACE OUT HOME SKILLET.

eeesh

haha my foot fell asleep and my leg hurtsssssssssssssssssssss.
sadsaddd D:
hahhh.

ooooooooooooomg so my birthday is likee 16 days away!
YAYAYAYAYAY! CAKE!

aand so i was thinking for my birthday party's theme.. id do an Indiana Jones/unicorn(phabio's tribute)/tropical one! :D
like the plates could have unis on them
indiana jones stuff
and tropical party accessories from target
:D


commment with other ideas for entertainment or like things to do :D i want my friends to be happy too! (:

tummy O:

okay;; now i remember why i stopped drinking white hot chocolate.
it gives me a tummy ache ): my tummy aches D: D: D: D: D:

RAWR.

i dont like this.

grrr.
goodbyeeeeeeeeeeeee

grrr.

my back hurts.
i ate a pumpkin muffin from dunkin donuts for breakfast and some white hot chocolate too, but that burnded my tonguey ):
i also am watching veggie tales currently (: i enjoy that show :D bob & larry :D






yup yup. gotta love them.
and larrry boy!!! :D








yeahyeahyeahyeahyeaaaauuh.
well, have a nice saturday! :D

i like peoples pain?

hahah ive just noticed that i like reading random people's blogs and reading how depressed/weird/retarded/nerdy/gay/whatever they are, and then that makes me feel better about myself. hahah im so mean O: eesh.

buttttttt selfesteeemissues=@#$@%!%!#*$!
hahhh

i have to wake up at freaking 9 tomorrow jkfsajkhfjkah. why must parents hate me??!?!?!?!?! i dont wanna drive up to north adams to get my moms stupidass car! wtf!!! grrr! and it was supposed to be better weather this weekend... whattheheck is wrong with these meteorologists!?! i swear, one day ill kill one of them. lkfasjlkfjsajfklasjfsjal

AND I CANT GO TO BAMBOOZLE ): ): ): ): ): ): ): ): ): ): ): ): ): ): ): ): ): ): ): ): ): ): ): ): ): ): ): ): ): ): ): ): ): ): ): ): ): ): ): ): ): ): ): ): ): ): ): ): ): ): ): ): ): ): ): ): ): ): ): ): ): ): ): ): ): ): ): ): ): ): ): ): ):

FUCK DADS (pardon my el languageyyooh)

if i cant go to TREOS last concert... someone will be dead. DEAD. dEaD. deAd. deaD. DeAd. DEad. DeaD. DEADDEADDEADDEADEADEAD!!!! DEE- EEE- AYY- DEE!!!!!!!

RAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAWR.

uuumm im sad that taylors sad. taylor shouldnt be sad.
uuumm ive been listening to emo music for like 6 hours straight :D
uuumm i wanna go to six flags. thatd be chill.
uuumm im boreder than bored.
uuumm i like my video masterpiece :D
uuumm i dont want school anymore, im sick of it. im sick of drama, fights, having to pee, the food, the desks, the rooms, the nasty heaters, the homework, certain peoples BO (i think you know who im talking about.. D...) yeah yeah and seriously i need to spend more time with my girls. i love my girls. stephybread, taylorschnitzel, veronicaweener, ashleypb, amandacakes;; I LOVE YOU ! :D
uuumm a story;

	today i was like at this tire place
	and my mom starts laughing at me
	im like whaaaaaat?
	and shes like
	you have a orange mustache!
	i was like come again?
	and she was like
	hahhahaaha from your vitamin water!
	i was like:
	GIVE ME A FREAKING WET WIPE YOU LOSER
	and i wiped away my mustache
	so now i drink it like a fish
	and it hurts my mouth
	eeeesh

hahahah :D

uuumm i thought this was funny hahaha buuut i was boredddd. (:

emmaasaurus x3 (5:43:22 PM):	i need to stop eating like a beefy man
Summerr xoxx (5:43:32 PM):	HAHHA
emmaasaurus x3 (5:43:42 PM):	i swear its gonna kill me hahah
Summerr xoxx (5:43:49 PM):	hahahahaha
emmaasaurus x3 (5:45:06 PM):	hahaha nice status biigweener
emmaasaurus x3 (5:45:08 PM):	((:
Summerr xoxx (5:45:19 PM):	yess it iss emmapie

. . . . . . . . . . . . . . .

Summerr xoxx (6:40:36 PM):	MY BUTT CHEEK SQUEAKED
emmaasaurus x3 (6:41:34 PM):	did you have another incident foghorn girl?
emmaasaurus x3 (6:41:35 PM):	aahahahahah
Summerr xoxx (6:41:46 PM):	NO it wasnt a farrrrt

welllllll im like suuper tiredddd. and i wanna snuggle up in bed with my bunny and binky with some honey bbq chips, and vitamin water ans watch johnny english. so ill catch you all laterrrs. byebyee! :D

Shahar and Frankie Outtakes

i do believe its a masterpiece (:


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thank youu! byyyee!! :D