RELOCATION.

So I just wanted to post the link to my new blog that I update regularly. Sorry Blogger :(

Anyways, here's the baby of this original "cornmuffinpancakes" (started when I was a wee 13 year old). Ladies and gentlemen, I give you "L A P S E".

(click the word "l a p s e" above for the link in case you didn't know)


<3.

Wherever You Go; I'll Follow.

So, this is an old blog post from 2 years ago. I came across this post while I was scoping out ideas for my speech in english class on a memory.
Anyways, this post is ridiculously ironic and amazing.
KNOW WHY?!?!
Because in this post I said that "I never got to see them live". I also said that "hopefully one day treos will make a comeback."

Well... exactly two years to the date from that post, I would finally see The Receiving End of Sirens live. I would finally see them in their full glory; performing with Casey even! I would finally meet Brendan.
While they are not getting back together, they still remain friends and continue to pursue careers in music. They will continue to do secret shows in the Massachusetts area every once and a while; and have a reunion show like at Skatefest every two years.

This is amazing. Incredible. Fantastic.
I honestly still cannot believe what I witnessed on Saturday night.
THIS ACTUALLY HAPPENED.
What I thought would never ever happen.
Did.

And I have the bruises and broken bones to prove it.
And it was so worth all the pain I now have to see my all-time favorite band live.
THANK YOU SO MUCH GOD FOR ALLOWING THIS TO HAPPEN IN MY LIFE.

And guaranteeing that there will be another reunion show in two years, the shirt I bought at their merch table says that it is a ticket to their reunion show in 2012.
I guarantee you that I WILL be at that show. And I will be able to drive there too!
I'm so excited.


But, I can't just talk about TREOS; Envy on the Coast was there too! Along with The Dear Hunter (Casey's new band), and I See Stars. Along with many other bands.
Envy on the Coast was AAAMAZING as well. Ryan Hunter is gorgeous. And insane. I love it!

Well, here are some pictures from the show that changed my life!:

↑ Roughly about my position for the night

↑ Envy on the Coast :)

↑ The Dear Hunter


OH OH! P.S: I have a new blog that I update more. I feel horrible cheating on blogger like this, but updating tumblr is so much easier on my phone.
Here's the link: http://cornmuffinpancakes.tumblr.com/

I don't do sadness, not even a little bit; just don't need it in my life.

Every time I start a new post, I never finish it, and end up not even posting it.
I'm finding that extremely lame.
I'm seriously going to try and put forth more of an effort to keep this blog up.
It holds all my memories. I'm going to want these memories down the road when I'm in college in a couple years.
Aah, that's so weird to say that. I was in kindergarten almost 11 years ago. That's over a decade that has flown by. So much has happened since then! So many experiences and changes and metamorphoses and challenges, but now I'm looking at colleges, trying to plan my future both with my career and with my relationships. It's scary, yet also extremely exciting and invigorating.

Anyways, I'm enjoying my new laptop, and iPhone.
This February vacation was a bit of a let down.
However, it was still great to have a week off. Instead of like 10 hour school days because of rehearsals.
It also wasn't so terribly horrible because I'm going to see "Spring Awakening" on Saturday.
I'm currently addicted to the soundtrack.
I'm feeling like this is going to be the most awkward musical/play I've ever had to see with my parents. It's gonna be my first live show that includes nudity! How exciting hahahahaha.
OMGOMGOMG, speaking of stages--the last day of school before the break we had our annual civility assembly. The chorus got to perform Glee's arrangement of "Don't Stop Believin'" It was kinda in shambles the day, and even a little in rehearsal earlier that morning, but when it was showtime and the entire school was in the auditorium, we all pulled together and put on the best dang performance ever. At first, when the music started and we started going down the aisles singing we could hear some people laughing, but then as it kept going they all got really into it and at the end as we were walking off the stage, they were all chanting for us to go again. So, we ran to the back of the auditorium and did it again, and this time on the last repeat of the chorus, everyone in the auditorium stood up and was singing with us. The cheer at the end of our performance was amazing. I've never been a part of something that had a crowd cheer for us that loudly and that much. It really proved the point of the entire assembly-- just because we may not be the most popular crowd of students, and the beginning was a bit unexpected, doesn't mean we don't have talent and could blow them away. Those who were laughing at the beginning weren't by the end of it. I love those assemblies. It's one of the very few occasions where everyone gets along and we all come together, coexist, and are one big Wahconah family.

<3

Stare into nothing, we are alive.

SOPHOMORE YEAR STARTS TOMORROW.
we're so growing up too fast it seems now.





i'll blog about everything AND the kitchen sink (hahaha) later :p
but for now, i'm going to salvage what remains of summer '09--
AKA: the cursed summer. for so many reasons.
LAME.




but this year is going to be fantastic.
heckyeah! :)




God Bless <3

I can see that the closest thing to perfect is the farthest thing from me.

alright, so this post was started on my birthday (may 19), and i never wrote anything in it? so, seeing as i'm majorly lame for not even blogging in my birthday month, i definitely should have at least one post in june. and since it's the last day of june '09--aka, like, the worst month ever?--it only seems right to blog now.

april was a good month i have to say. the chorus and band trip to williamsburg, VA was pretty freaking fantastic hahah. we did so much aside from the competition and going to busch gardens. we went to a lot of museums and stuff to make the trip educational, but it was fun too. the group was only like 60 people. we had one bus, and the "party van". and for all the kids there were only like 4 chaperones. it was amazing, cause they actually trusted us. on the way down, we stopped for lunch at a rest stop in new jersey. that was... interesting. i was sitting outside of starbucks at a table with ally, emily, and tony. we were just sitting there, with starbucks and cinnabons. then a hippie came over to me and was like, "hey, can i have a cinnabon? i don't have money for food." i was like, "uuh, sure..?" so i gave him one thinking he'd leave. i was wrong on that point. he stayed there for like 10 minutes. talking to us. about random things that didn't really make much sense. he asked us where we were from, i said western massachusetts. he said he goes up to amherst from time to time. then he asked us to go to a grateful dead concert with him. we were like, uhh.. no thanks. we have a competition in virginia to get to. he was like really? what kind of competition? and we were like, chorus and band. we're in chorus. he was like woah, really? sing for me. we were like, no. and then he started singing "my girl". like for 2 minutes, and he's like singing extremely loudly, and everyone's looking at us, and we were like, oh my Godddddd this guy is high off his asss. it made my trip. hahahaha.

on the trip though, we could go do whatever basically when we got somewhere, as long as we checked in every, like, 5 hours or something. and we didnt even have to see them, we could just call them. if it was a class trip or something, it wouldn't have been as fun because the teachers would've hovered and we wouldn't have been trusted because the troublemakers would have been there. and as band and chorus, they were pretty confident we weren't going to do something completely stupid. well.. they probably don't really know us hahaha. but we're still better. but it was kind of amazing how the group got along. normally, a lot of us never really associate with each other, but on the trip everyone was like a family. at the hotel at night everyone bonded because we couldn't hang out in our hotel rooms ahah. and the first night, everyone went in the pool and they had a hottub that had a maximum limit of 5 people--we had like 18 people in there. and of course there was shopping (: i ♥ norfolk.

colonial williamsburg was also kinda cool. i had already been there like 4 times before, and saw everything so it wasn't really the most interesting thing. mini golfing at pirates cove.. um. let's recap that with the words: EPIC FAIL. mainly on my part. let's just say i should never golf. i hit the golf ball into the waterfall, then while i was trying to get that out, i dropped my golf club in the water, then i was hanging on to the side by just my feet and legs, and just about fell into the water, when i finally got my golf ball and club out. then, if you thought i couldn't get any worse, i hit the ball and it clipped tge side, went flying and nearly took some guy's head off, and then went flying into the bushes in the parking lot. but overall, that trip was great (:

oh, and mixed chorus won 1st place. chamber choir won 3rd place. band won 1st place.
also, in april, taylor, lucy, and i went to northern lights and saw cash cash, the friday night boys, and forever the sickest kids (:

may was a pretty easy-going month. nothing big really happened; nothing bad, nothing good. it was just neutral. my birthday and birthday party were fun (: six reunion much? everyone's getting along, it was great. at the end of may, there was one more chorus activity. the berkshire chorus festival at the colonial theater. we were performing with mount greylock, monument mountain, and the berkshire choral group or something. we rehearsed friday night at saint stephen's church for 3 hours. then, on saturday for 6 hours. then on sunday we were at the colonial for like 6 hours. we performed handel's zadok the priest, schubert's mass in g (oh how i love latin...), and an assortment of american folk songs. it was actually waaaay more fun than i thought it was going to be.

june. june, june, june. not my favorite month so far this year.
it was pretty depressing. kinda bittersweet.
so i started june off pretty optimistic. it was the last month of my freshman year at wahconah. there were 25 days until summer.
not far into month, was the one year anniversary of my grandma's passing. then, the day after that, i learned that one of my friends was in a coma. the day after that, he passed on. he was 17 years young. too young to go. that was the first blow to the happiness of the month. then, the month started going by really really slowly. i started freaking out about grades. about the upcoming finals. about basically everything. then there were like 2 days without rain. it started getting pretty depressing.
on one of those sunny days, the freshman class went to highmeadow park in connecticut because it was senior assembly and they didn't have room for us. so, at this park, it was like middle school day. they had a very overcrowded pool, tons of food, other activities, and volleyball. wahconah took over the volleyball court. that's where i spent my entire day. there was absolutely no shade. i put sunblock on more than once, and i didn't realize i was fried like the french fries i ate, until like 4:30. i was basically as red as the hippie in new jersey's eyes ahahaha. then i got sunpoisoning on my shoulders. and peeling was disgustinnnng. and it hurt like craaazy.

then the carnival came to town. that was fun. not as fun as years past, but still fun. it gets lamer and lamer every year though haha. i just like the food. and the zipper. you never know if you're gonna die on that thing or not. oh, and yes, i did take this amazing picture on my phone. the sky is pretty epic.

then it was stephanie and laura's birthday. and steph's party was pretty dang fun. especially the second day, when steph, bryanna, asia, and i went rafting down the housatonic river. and ended up going pretty far and we were all injured and cold. so we got out, climbed up the side of a mountain pushing the raft with us, and sat on the side of a bridge for like 40 minutes trying to flag someone down to use their cell phone so we could get a ride back up to hinsdale. then the cops came. and i like broke my toe, and cut it open. it was like, the most fun ever (no sarcasm).
and then over the course of the month, like 6 celebrities died. MJ died. that's sad stuff. even if he was a creep. buut finals came, they were easy, i passed. im now a sophomore. 3 more years in dalton. summer '09 is here. i'm going to make the most of it. i'm starting over this summer. i don't really want a repeat of this past year. not that it was bad or anything. it just wasn't the best or anything. so thursday, i'm getting a new hairstyle, new hair color, new outfits. i'm starting fresh. i'm going to reconnect with God and my faith. go to some revivals. reconnect with family. go to some parties. reconnect with friends. go to some concerts. have fun. i'll only live once.

†R.I.P ya'll <3.

Matthias Replaces Judas

kay so, it's Good Friday and i got my mom to let me stay home (:
but really, it should be a day we have off to reflect on our year so far, and our sins, etc etc.
and i just thought i'd post this video to one of my favorite songs, that every time i hear it, it has an overwhelming affect on me. showbread is amazing, and this video to go with the song is also very overwhelming. WARNING, it does have some gruesome scenes, but that's part of what makes it so overwhelming and effective to see what Jesus went through for us, and that no matter our strife, He will always be there to pick us up again.


alright, so today i slept for like the first time in so long. everything's over now; the musical, and the beatles concert. both went exceptionally well. wednesday night's concert of the beatles music was beyond amazing. i have never ever in all my years of being in the wahconah auditorium, seen the auditorium that full. every functioning seat was full, people were sitting along the walls, and there were rows of people standing in the back. it gave me this amazing feeling of, people actually care about what we're doing, and that undergoing this huge battle of putting together the entire beatles' sgt. pepper album with the band was well worth it. we heard from some people that our rendition of "being for the benefit of mr. kite" (one of my favorite beatles' songs ever btw haha) was even better than the beatles' original. having someone say you're better than the beatles is like, such a huge compliment. it just feels great that we were able to grab these people in the audience and bring them into a world where stock markets, and money, and troubles, etc, didn't matter. its great haha (:

as for the musical, that went great too. our opening night show deffinitely left something to be desired though; it was for sure not our best. but friday and saturday nights' performances were amazing; so many people came and it was well-received by the public which always feels coolwhen you've been working so hard on something for so long. i cut my ankle open though, that wasn't too fun ahah. and friendly's, and the cast party--what can i say? it's the apollonian players, we're ridiculously fun. bahaha (: and my costume was pretty interesting, especially my feather mullet. i am nooot going to miss it. but i am going to miss everyone in the cast, and crew, and pit band (even if they do eat ridiculous amounts of food in front of us). and even though i see most of them everyday or so at school, it's not the same. the bond that this cast got over the course of this show is amazing. we all grew through this greuling process. i'm proud of everyone <3.


anyways. i just felt like blogging today ahaa. my 1 year anniversary of blogging is rapidly approaching! it seems like yesterday that taylor told me i should start blogging, and i did. amazing (:

COUNTDOWNS!:
1 week until vacation!
1 week, 5 days until possible silverstein, blessthefall, norma jean, before their eyes concert!
2 weeks, 4 days until my 1 year anniversary of blogging!
2 weeks, 6 days until the williamsburg, VA chorus competition trip!
1 month, 1 week, 1 day until my 15th birthday!
2 months, 1 week, 5 days until the last day of school!

I'm breathing in sunshine.

←bamf.



haha, okay, so i don't really know what i'm going to blog about today. i just got home from tech at school for the musical. it was alright, there wasn't much we could do because it was mainly heavy lifting stuff, so i painted and washed brushes. and you know what, i like being on paintbrush washing duty, because i like the janitor's closet in G hall for some reason haha. like, it has this vent thing above the sink thing and air pours down from it and it feels cool hahah. aand, its such a little space, and its like my own little room. which i like, because i cannot stand being in the auditorium during tech because everyone doesn't shut up, and i always end up having to do three times the amount of work. besides, they were playing horrible music today, that no one liked, except for the minority of 3 or 4. it was ridiculous. and i got purple paint on my bdg cigarette jeans (aka; my miracle jeans). but it was an okay day haha. but it's weird i haven't even talked about the musical yet on here. i'm so lame. so i'm going to induct a new subject to my blog:
SECRETS FROM "ONCE UPON A MATTRESS"

soo, to start off this new subject point;
auditions went well, except for the nursery rhyme one where i had the worst tongue twister, and i accidently said "sex" instead of six, like 5 times. fml hahaha. but my singing audition i guess went well haha, everyone was like, woah i didn't know she had that in her, or something. but it turns out that it was because i hit something like a high C, and even though that was ridiculously off pitch, everyone was like OMG. and, i did sell my song (: if stages has taught me anything, it would be to sell everything you do, because if you put yourself out there and you're comfortable, you can become your character so much easier. needless to say, being a freshman, leads are reserved for juniors and seniors. but i got the chorus part of lady karina. and i also got the solo part of the nightingale of samarkand, which means i have a lullaby to sing. and i can't get the rhythm, or notes right and it's so frustrating because i have to learn it on my own. therefore, i'm going to sound ridiculous, when i'm already going to look ridiculous in a bird costume, in a cage, on top of the monster, elevated 7 feet in the air, with techies being the only thing holding it to keep me from falling off and going SPLAT! in the pit. haha, it should be interesting. speaking of heights; like all my blocking for scenes is on the top platforms, and since our set is 2 levels, and it's going to be up to 8 feet in the air at the highest point (where i have to do the hardest, most active dance of the show on). hopefully no one will get hurt. but at the beginning i didn't really want to do this show because everyone who did it in stages the year i was in virginia said it wasn't that good of a show. but it's really not that bad; the show is really funny haha. i guess when we were younger we didn't get all the inuendos. and a really weird coincedence is that i'm going to virginia like, 20 or something days after the performances. so it's like i'm reliving that year, but doing both things i wanted to do. i think it's weeird haha. but it's really fun, i love the cast (: we're such a good little family hahaha. and there's a rumor going around that this is mr. towne's last year of doing theater at wahconah. and our school's budget has tossed around the idea of cutting all funds for all activities that aren't our major sports, or academic related. if that happens, i swear, i'm going to move. but i just can't picture myself doing theater anywhere else than wahconah. after all, i've been acting on that stage since i was like 8 or 9; so thats like 7 years of my life. woaaah. that means i've been in like 13 plays in my lifetime. aaah. i feel so old saying that.

anyway, i'm cold, and i'm leaving soon to go pick out a new cornwallis (jr), and go eat.
so, i'll leave you with a few oldies from the archives (granted, they aren't the best quality)

CAMP JEWELL! '07